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For those of you who might wonder, who is this guy? I will tell you. I am a man, a simple man of 36 years who has spent a lifetime trying to understand the human condition. i wondered as a child, why? Why do people hurt each other? Why do people hate each other? Because as a child I simply could not understand or comprehend how anyone could ever hate or hurt another person. I was saved at the age of three and that happened because my Grandmother loved me enough to share the story of how Christ came into this world in His love for me and all of us. She told me how the people of His day hated Him, even though He came into this world to love us and to save us from our sins. Though I was only three at the time, I fully understood everything my Grandmother told me about Christ, because during that time, I remember so clearly feeling the love, power and the drawing near of God's Spirit to me and that my life truly belonged to Christ. To me He was and is so beautiful, heartbreakingly beautiful. I remember crying because, I could feel inside of me the hatred of others for Christ and it hurt so much. My Grandmother showed this picture Bible to illustrate the Gospel and I remember that when she showed me a picture of Christ crucified for my sins, I did not see a mere picture, I think i truly had what was the first of many visions to come. At that time, literally I experience it in the most personal way, Christ before me, dying on the cross for me in His infinite love for me. It was just myself and Him, the rest of the world, ceased to be for a time and there with Christ I experienced the greatest love, I have ever known.

For two years I would wake up every day with His smile upon me. Christ was my constant friend and companion. One day He told, "My son, I am going to use you." I remember very excitedly asking Him "when?" He told me that i would have to grow up first, and I know now that He meant physically, spiritually and emotionally. That was 31 years ago and I believe firmly, because I have always felt my destiny was in Him, that He will use me. I kept asking Him about hatred, I wanted to understand it, to know why people do it. In time and throughout my life, I did understand hatred; I was in fact consumed by it. I hated myself, I hated this world and everyone in it. I had gotten so far into the other side of life, that I even practiced sorcery, and once I did the Devil did not want to let go of me, he use to come to me in my dreams, striking this great fear and terror into me threatening to take my life, but truly, he never could. I have always believed that Christ had forgotten and abandoned me and that i was totally alone in this world. This belief crushed my spirit to no end and the Lord showed why He allowed this to happen in my life and that is because He wanted me to know truly how great His love is for me. For you see, I was never alone to begin with. To every child that belongs to Him, He promises, "I love you and I will never leave you nor forsake you." Though I felt alone, I was not, that was a lie of the deceiver to keep in chains, imprisoned so that I would be of no effect for Christ unto the people of this world. It was not until the Lord told me that for me to be free, to live a life surrendered unto Him; I had to choose to walk away from the sin and darkness in my life. I was already free, but it was what I believed so deeply that I was not free that condemned me to suffer so greatly. I realized finally that even though the door to my prison had been open even though it felt so tightly shut and the chains that bound me were choking the life out of me that truly the chains were loose around me and Christ had already opened the door for me to walk through. I still did not have enough strength of my own to simply walk out of my prison door and into the freedom of Christ's love for me. I finally reached a point in my life where I said, "Lord, if I am to free, then i need you come into to this prison of mine, pick me up bodily or by the hand and walk me out of here forever into your light, because I cannot leave on my own." And this is exactly what Christ did for me, He was waiting outside of my prison door, looking into my eyes, waiting for me to call out to Him for help and that is really what He is doing for every single one of us, because only Christ has that key to let us out and only can Christ can take us out of the prison that we are all in. You are never free, if in your heart you are a slave and you might even be very wealthy person and live in a 50 million dollar house and have 20 cars and all the lovers you could ever dream of, but if you are living to please the desires of your flesh, you my a friend are a slave to sin and the Devil and there are many millions of people driving nice cars with fancy houses who are so secure in their lives and they feel that they have no need for Christ at all and so they will quietly, willingly go to the grave in their sins and perish forever. The devil has judged, condemned and imprisoned every single person in this world and if you are not saved then that prison cell or fancy house that you are living in is truly "Death Row" because if you do not receive forgiveness for your sins, then you my friend will perish forever and to die in Hell is an eternal tragedy, please ask Christ for help today, He will be sure to come to you, because He loves you so very much and knows where and how you hurt and knows just how to touch you, to make your pain, emptiness and sorrow go away. I understood at the age of four, why people hurt each other. I understood it so deeply and profoundly, that I knew it started back in the Garden of Eden, when man first fell. I did this by looking at my mother and father and I understood, they hurt me because they were hurt as children by their parents, and their parents were hurt by their parents, and so it goes all the way back to the beginning. I decided at the age of four, I made an oath to God and to myself, that the cycle of violence in my life and those I loved and that is all of you was going to end with me. Now I do not say this to be grandiose. I know that so many of you will disagree with me and even hate me for believing what I believe, but I think even one person in Christ can cause profound change in this world, because Christ is His power is infinite and Him working through my life, I know that He can do great things for others in this world. I only want to help others to be free, to know the love of Christ for themselves, to give up hatred and violence as a way of life. So many people love and cherish these things in the world, money, power, worldly esteem, but in the end it is all despair and longing for the true freedom that we can only have in Christ, and so I offer to you the hand Christ to truly free you of all that has hurt you and bound you in this world.

When I was five I fell into the hand of Satan worshippers and they did everything in their power to so corrupt me and make me hate and fear Christ that i would never go back to Him. They punished me for my love for Him and for so long I believed that I was weak for loving Him and I know that is a lie and since I first met those people I have been apologizing to the world for who and what God has created me to be. Well, no longer am I going to apologize to to you or anyone for who I am in Christ. You may not love me, you may hate me, and I understand now, why you do, but that does not stop me from loving you with all the love I have in Christ, which is an infinite and boundless love. I believe His love is so powerful that it can conquer the greatest of evil in this world. It says in proverbs, that "with a gentle word, you can break a bone" and I believe that, because the Lord in His love for me has broken me again and again I now remain broken in such a way that I know I will always need Him and I really think that things changed so much for me when I realized that I all I had to give to Christ was my brokenness and my utter dependence on Him for everything. I could not be in this world without Him, it is too dark of a place for me to want to call home, I am simply passing through and this world is ripe for the harvest, and I would like to take as many of you with me as God will allow to a place of eternal rest and beauty, a place of awesome glory where all are loved and there is no tear in anyone's eye.

I know that Christ’s physical suffering was by no means the greatest of His suffering although His physical suffering was tremendous. I believe that the greatest of Christ’s suffering was to know for Himself that suffering within His body, mind, Spirit and heart every sin that man would commit as intimately as if it were His own. The evil of evil I know is to attempt to deny Jesus Christ the Son of God, God Himself, of the very fact that He alone is the author and creator of all life itself and that apart from Him there can be no life. Every sin I know is an act of murder towards Christ, every sin rages at Christ, "Crucify! Crucify!" because it says, to Christ, "I do not need you Christ. I am self sufficient. I can live in and of myself. I am a god unto myself and I am greater than you!!"
Now I ask you, who does this sound like to you? It sounds like the enemy of life itself to me. It sounds just like Satan in all of his pathetic and worthless pride and he has gone to great lengths to breed this pride into the hearts of every human being in this world to such a great degree so that they will never see or know the awesome glory and beauty that alone is Jesus Christ.
I also know though that in the end that Christ will never be denied of the glory that is due Him, and Him alone, for every knee shall bow and every tongue shall confess that "Jesus Christ is Lord!" I know that Christ knew all our sins on the cross for all of the horror and anguish and torment that they truly are and I believe that Hell is a place where the unbeliever is ever tormented by the guilt, weight, burden and horror of their own sins, in the light of the fact that they will also finally know the truth of who Christ really is and that they completely blew it by denying Him on the cross, not only that, but Hell will be a place where the eternal wrath of God does abide within and upon the lost soul and there can never be any escape from the sight of God’s fearsome presence.
In January on 2004 I had an amazing experience in which the Lord led me to know and understand the incredible weight and burden of my own sin. In this experience I was able to really feel for the first time and in a very long time the horror and anguish and especially the separation that my own sin has caused me to have in this life from God.

It was agonizing. I was weeping and sobbing and groaning, I felt as if I just wanted to die, but I knew that I was not alone because I felt the loving and tender presence of my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ and my Father. It was a horrible experience, but truly a blessing to know the guilt of my sin but also a blessing to know that Christ loved me enough to take the price of my sin upon Himself and to die for me so that I would not have to.

What really struck me is the awareness that in myself I could never approach God in all of His infinite holiness and righteousness I was aware, truly aware of this great and awesome barrier that sin was and is in my life and that only Christ in the shedding of His precious blood could bring me back into a loving fellowship with my God and Father.

This experience changed my whole life. It showed me that my only hope in this life was the words, the living word of God, Jesus Christ, which is the pages between the covers of my Bible. Because Christ had shown me that I had come to hate His word and in so doing I really hated Him, I knew that I had to repent of this. Because God’s word was given to me to protect me from the harmful and deadly things of this world and so I became afraid, God put His fear into my life and I really for the first time in a long time feared God far more than evil or Satan, because it is the people of this world that fears and loves and serves evil because they simply cannot conceive of any greater power than the god of this world and so I believe that is a primary reason why they reject Christ. To live for yourself is very destructive and I know this is true because I am my own worst enemy, the Lord once told me “To live for yourself is the path to certain destruction.” He could not have told me this in any clearer words and at the time I was totally committed to my way and only my way.
He also suffered with us on that cross, He was with every one of us in the fellowship of our suffering. He also brought with Him everyone of us to that cross to die with Him so that we too might rise again in glory, strength and the in suffiency of His power and grace. And we can only have life in Him if we accept in faith through His grace the power to forgive us in the cleansing and the power of His blood to wash away all of our sins and breath into us His life and His spirit, apart from Him we can never have any real life, love, freedom or hope at all.

I felt myself one night in prayer hanging on that cross with Christ, hanging their and feeling the weight of all my sin, cares, hopes, sorrow, pain and the burden of death within me baring down on Him in His body and what was most amazing is that I felt that Christ was not only able to bare the burden of death and sin within me, but that He was so much more than able, I felt that He took my burden upon Himself because I have surrendered it to Him and that in Him that burden was no longer mine but His and in Him I was free of this burden of sin and death and that my Savior Jesus Christ was and is supremely able to bare my every burden, He showed me there that on that cross He took care of my every need, that I would ever have, that is why He could say, “It is finished.”

I know that I can never do what Christ did in this world in and of myself because I am a king of fools. Even Christ said, “In myself, I can do nothing.” And He created the whole Universe. I do not expect for one second to accomplish what God wants for me to do in my own power because, thank God I have come to know that I am totally powerless to do anything at all for myself or anyone else for that matter. I now know that I need and depend on Christ for everything in this life and the life to come and that in His grace and power He is more than sufficient to supply my every need. I only want in Christ to be all that I am or hope to be in this life and the life to come, to be clean and pure of heart for Him. It was not until I saw the truth of my powerlessness, frailties, weakness, and total and utter dependence of Christ that I came to know any truth at all. Before that I had chosen to live the lie as if were the truth, to love the darkness as if it were light and to embrace the darkness and it’s death as if it were my life and I suffered for it greatly.

Ultimately, we will all live or die for what we believe in, so we must choose very wisely what we believe in and put the mind of Christ to upon ourselves, and we must surrender even our very thoughts to Him, because the enemy is ever fighting for control of our minds and to isolate and to tell us we are alone in this world and if we believe his lie, then we are bound to live it and just one lie, I have learned can do terrible damage to a person. The Devil’s lie can imprison one’s entire being for many years in fear, sorrow and heartbreak as it did myself. But thanks be to the Lord, He would not let me stay a prisoner forever, I did not even have the strength to walk out of the prison of my own making. I had to humbly ask the Lord to come in and pick me up by the hand and carry bodily out of this darkness that I had learned to call home for so long and once I did that, then I knew I could be truly free and I know that in faith and in the power of His grace I can do anything that Christ wants to do in and through me.

The burden that God gave to man when he fell from grace is to be reunited with God in peace and love, to have the freedom to love, serve, obey and to have a loving and fulfilling relationship with our God and Father.

The tradgedy is that we run from the very life and freedom that we seek most of all because of sin within us and this freedom that we seek, it ever haunts us and so we seek it out in the things of this world, we try to find answers to fulfill this burden in the things of this world but the only One who is truly able to take this burden from us is Jesus Christ Himself and if we do not find Jesus in that we do not surrender our lives to Him we will have no rest and we can never find the freedom we so long for because this freedom is not be found in anything is this world. This world is sin and death, it is a lie and to love this world is to hate God and to live the lie which we and chose to believe in and if one lives a lie, then one will in the end die for the lie because one has chosen to call God a liar for saying that God was a liar when He put His Son Jesus on that cross to die for their sins, so that they might be saved from the penalty of their sins.

I rebelled against Christ when I was 18 because I was so angry at what happened in my life because I was an abused child and I told Him that I was going to live to make my life for myself and I did this in pride and thank God that He loved me enough to break me of my sinful pride or I would be dead or in prison for life right now. I had a death wish from the time I was eight years old and every time I tried, the Lord would not let me take my own life. I had four nervous breakdowns because I valued my pride more than I did my relationship with Jesus and my loving Father and it was not until I reached out to Christ in faith when I thought my life was over that He began to heal me. I started writing poetry in 1995 to express my love for Him. In the writing of poetry I have found my true identity in Christ once again and a way to minister to the needs of others. I want nothing more than to have a servant’s heart, a heart like that of Christ’s when He was in this world and that He still has today. I have no greater pleasure aside from Christ Himself, than to minister to the needs of others and I realize that my only purpose in this world is to do as much as I can to shine the light of Christ within me to anyone and everyone that will receive it. As it says in Matthew 5:14-15 "You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.” Did you ever think of what and honor it is that Christ would call us the “light of the world”? He says the very same thing of Himself! Unless I am shining the light of Christ within me, then my life is vain and Christ did not die a cruel death on a cross and shed His precious blood for me so that I could live in vain and I simply cannot bare to live a wasteful life anymore. I know that I did not suffer in vain but to the glory of Christ and I do not consider myself to be a victim of circumstance anymore and the Lord has shown me that true peace does not come from your circumstance being a certain way, because that is how the people of this world live, by manipulating their circumstances. No, true peace comes from resting in the grace, power, beauty and love that Christ has for you. It is your birthright as a child of God and if you want it, it is yours, but you only lose it when you choose to lay it down and try to fix things for yourself. I feel honored that Christ would see fit for me to suffer for Him and I now know that I was not alone in any of my suffering none of us ever are. I now know that He was always with me. I was lied to by some very hateful and evil people, but in the end Christ has set me free with the truth of His word and power of His mighty love for me and I know now again who I am in Him. Christ did not and has not forgotten any of us, He cares so deeply for our every need and He accomplished everything that He would ever have to do for us in the shedding of His blood on that cross for all of time and eternity. May God Bless You Richly, David

“My Shed Blood For Thee”
I have seen You there with my eyes, oh Lord,
I have seen You suffering.
I have seen You crucified, my Lord.
Shedding your precious blood for my sin.
I have felt You take me to your cross my Lord,
and there to die with You,
so that in glory with You my Lord,
I may rise again!
I have felt the power of Your blood my Lord,
washing me through and through of all iniquity
as the cleansing flood.
Kneeling before your cross, my Lord
I have cried so many tears
and it is then as I weep before You,
on the cross my Lord,
that You say more to me and I to You,
than even a thousand prayers.
There is no greater glory my Lord,
than to worship You,
at the cross of Calvary.
For it was there You died to save all man.
Yet, I know my Lord it was there,
that You died,
if only to save me.
I have seen you there my Lord,
with this look of blazing love within Your eyes,
that speaks to me with such tender cries.
“This is because I love you!.”
Is what You say to me.
“No greater gift of love,
do I have to give,
than my shed blood for thee.”
David Cowan




“Jesus, My Friend”
Do you have a friend with whom
you will be one,
unbroken,
complete,
joined,
and united to forever?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend whose warmth,
radiance,
gladness,
majesty,
splendor,
rapture,
exaltation,
devotion,
adoration
and glory
just fills you up to overflowing?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend whose providence
and divine intervention
will care for you
even when you do not
have the will to care for yourself?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend whose very hand,
has established the foundations of Heaven and Earth
and who in His power sustains all things?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend to whom you are
so precious,
cherished
and irreplaceable
that he spilled His blood for you?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend whose love for you
is a love that is endless,
infinite,
boundless
and without measure?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend that can bare
your burdens,
distress,
torment
and fears?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend
that can mend and heal
the brokenness,
sorrow
and heartbreak within you?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend who is ever willing to forgive you?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend who gives you life,
purpose,
truth,
wisdom,
strength
and peace unchanging?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend that is closer to you than a brother?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend whose love for you
is a joy,
comfort,
rest and companionship like no other?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend who comes
to live and breath within you?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend whose smile upon you
is more beautiful than the golden rays of summer?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend who plants His seed
within you,
by the streams of life giving water?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend that promises you
that for no good,
true,
virtuous,
excellent
and Godly thing,
will you ever thirst or hunger?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend
whose dear embrace
does bring to you a joy
both all surpassing and eternal?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend that promises,
“I will never leave nor forsake you.”
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend that loves you enough
to make you just like Him,
perfect,
pure of heart,
loving,
lovely,
holy,
righteous,
gracious,
tender
and compassionate?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend in whom you abide
and to whom you belong
and to whom you would lay down
and entrust your own life?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend who is worthy,
worthy of all your praise,
worthy of all your worship,
worthy of all your admiration,
worthy of all your adoration,
worthy of all your celebration,
worthy of all your love,
worthy of all your heart,
mind,
body,
and soul
worthy above all?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend who is the very wonder,
esteem,
awe,
cornerstone,
author
and bread of life?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend who shed His blood,
tasted death
and suffered infinitely
in the penalty of your sin
upon a wooden cross
just for you,
so that you would not have to?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend whose sovereign right,
rule,
authority,
being
and integrity
over all creation reigns supreme?
Well, I do.

Do you have a friend whose every word
is truly the Word of life!
Well I do.

Do you have a friend who knows all,
sees all
and whom without,
you and I simply could not be?
Well, I do.

All of us,
we are only because He is.
He is the Great I Am
and His name is above all names.

There is no one before or after Him
and His precious name
is that of the most holy One,
Alpha and Omega,
beginning and end,
God’s beloved Son, Jesus, my friend.
David Cowan
About the Author
My is name is Dave I like poetry, I love Jesus and my poetry is about Him. Take care.
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