Deep And Painful Feelings The world outside moves so fast
While I'm still stuck in the past
Time for me just stands still
Because of all the pain I feel
I know I'm meant to be on my own
Its felt this way for so long
Things just keep going wrong
I feel no one will ever love me
I don't know what to do
Or where I go from here
Being alone for eternity
Is how my life is meant to be
Every bridge I drive across
A strange thought enters my head
I think about driving over the edge
Crashing my car until I'm dead
I've managed not to do it yet
So there must be hope for me
But right now I feel
That hope will never be seen
So what am I meant to do?
Where do I go from here?
Because at the moment
I'm living my worst fear
I've felt this way for many years
With no one to see my tears
They can't be seen in the light
They only flow in the night
They're out of sight but falling
From my eyes and down my face
Only I can feel them
Falling from my sad and lonely eyes
So when will the world outside
Stop moving so fast
When will time start back up
I really wish I knew
Whatever comes I'm ready
However bad it may be
When will I loose this pain?
So that time starts moving again
It may never happen
It may never come
I'll be sad and lonely
Until the end of time
What happens when time runs out?
Will the pain then leave my life?
I can only wait and see
How my life is meant to be
But remember I'm thinking of you all
I'm wishing you all knew my pain
Maybe you could've saved me
And stopped me feeling low
Maybe you could've helped me
If you'd really wanted to
Maybe you could've saved me
From this life that's so cruel
So when I say farewell
You'll finally be able to see
How much pain I really felt
And what you meant to me
Copyright 2003 Lee Platford
Written 9th March 2003 | 
